Dear Colin:

Favorite Christmas Song

Or favorite portion of a song, anyway:

Be near me,
Lord Jesus,
I ask thee to stay
close by me forever
 and love me,
I pray.
Bless all the dear children
 in thy tender care
and fit us for heaven
to live with thee there.




How perfect is that?

I got a new camera for Christmas.

Due to my rap sheet (I've broken one and a half phones, three or four MP3s and two cameras), this new one is 

Water Proof
Shock Proof
Dust Proof
&
Freeze Proof


Can I really mess it up?

What are weapons used for?

My 12 year old brother got a huge bow and nerf arrows for Christmas... He's the only one of the children who is excited about this gift. The rest of us will be treading carefully.

I Miss Colin.

 And I apologize to anyone who interacts with me over this break, because he makes it into every conversation.

Colin came to my ward's FHE to finger paint.

But the situation got a little bit out of...........Hand.

He's a lot taller than me. My feet inside my boots fit into his church shoes.

FLASHBACK: Remember the post about dancing and the Winter Formal? Maybe? Well, either way.... Colin and I are pretty epic photo bombers.

In the Spirit of Christmas....

I wish I could have held him.
I have so much to say,
But could my poor, inept tongue
Tell what I must convey?

I'd tell Him how I love Him
And try to understand
Why He would stoop to lift me
And offer me His hand.

I'd confess to Him my sorrow
For all the times I fell
And beg Him to forgive me.
Oh, there is so much to tell.

I suspect somehow He's grasp it
And give me a tiny nod.
My tears would wet His warm cheeks
As I kissed the face of God.

I wish I could have held Him
On that first Christmas night
And see the tiny spark
That would fill the earth with light.

I wish I could have been there
To hear the angels sing
And shout to all who'd listen
Of the joy this child would bring.

But that is not my mission.
I have another call
To help the world remember
The Savior of us all.

So as each Christmas season
Eclipses hate and fear
The Gospel of the Christ Child
Must endure throughout the year.

No, I can never hold Him.
That dream will never be,
But I must now live worthy
Of the day when He'll hold me.

"I Wish I Could Have Held Him"
by Kent Mansen

A Good Quote.... from a History Book

"Though we might wish otherwise, the history of what might have been is usually not history at all, mixing together as it does the messy tangle of past experience with the clairvoyant certainty of our present preferences."
-Jospeh J. Ellis, Founding Brothers